Repost @howamifeelingg I did not plan for this web sort of…
I did not plan for this web sort of thing to happen but I’m sorta glad it worked out this way. My original plan for this was just to list a lot of old belief systems that have been coming up- which I did- but the interesting part was to see what connected and where they lead to. I think I accidentally did some sort of CBT exercise which I highly recommend doing.
I used to have one hell of a mind that would run away all the time. There was no stopping it back then and although I have a better understanding it still takes time to re-wire those original thought patterns. I don’t know what I used to picture anxiety as because it was always contained in my head so even if I ever briefly heard the word, I probably thought something along the lines of, “nah that’s not me. I’m just a mess of a person”. (But probably with more harsh language). I took everything my brain did and accepted it as a personal flaw rather than just a loose wire flailing around like those inflatable dancing balloons outside car dealerships.
It still feels weird to be able to name this thing in a way that i don’t accept blame for the wacky shenanigans my brain does. Every time I have any sort of break through it blows my mind all over again. I don’t have to keep this to myself. I don’t have to feel ashamed for it. I don’t have to be mad at myself. I hope something changes where children are taught from an early age over and over that they don’t have to carry this sort of weight or shame. Sometimes brains just do weird shit and it isn’t their fault.
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