Repost @emotionally_unstable_bitch – I’m trying to be…
Repost @emotionally_unstable_bitch – I’m trying to be positive! I just can’t stop thinking about what i haven’t got! What the fuck is wrong with me? Why am I so negative about MYSELF? I literally have nothing! If I was to walk out on my BF all I’ve got is a car stashed away somewhere! I probably couldn’t even afford to get it on the road! My kids go back on Thursday, this is the longest I’ve had them in ages, I’ve managed 4 ½ weeks without being admitted to hospital. Which is a huge step! But. I can’t stop thinking about what i should be doing and what i wanted out of life! This is not how I wanted my life to be. I wanted so much more for me and my girls…. so much more. I need help. I’m still waiting for my therapy, it’s been 20 years now. I’m so fed up of waiting. I’m always waiting. I know I have sooo much potential! People are always telling me to just do it. Do what you want, I have so many ideas of ways to make money. But I can never get past the first stage. I need a mentor. Someone who understands I have no confidence. No faith in myself. I’m so close to giving up. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m just walking around like a fucking zombie. I need to change. Asap!
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