Repost @bpd.mgt I know this for a fact as I caught it in the…

Repost @bpd.mgt

I know this for a fact as I caught it in the act. My brain loves to torment me, making me think of horrid things, making me re-live traumatic memories, dwell on mistakes and worry about the future. It also wants me to listen. It doesn’t let me to fall asleep or escape from its eternal replay of hell. But I know know that my brain is not me. It’s out to get me. One day, when I was especially tired, my brain was desperate to keep me awake so I can pay attention to it tormenting me. I was too tired and struggled to stay awake so my brain, in desperation was throwing all random stuff at me with a goal of waking me up, getting my cortisol flowing and get the familiar tightness in my stomach that comes with feeling anxious. My brain went “hey, I’ve got something real scary for you, pay attention now! Listen: Slenderman!”. It was supposed to make me scared but I literally had no idea what the hell Slenderman was. Apparently it’s some horror film that’s in the cinema right now and it has a menacing poster that my brain saw somewhere in the city and thought it’d scare me enough to stop and listen. But instead I laughed it off. I had no idea what Slenderman was and this desperate attempt of stressing me out was so obvious that I started paying more attention to my brain. Before this event, I made the mistake that most of us makes and I thought I was my thoughts. I think therefore I am. Well, turns out I’m not my thoughts. My thoughts exist because I’m here, without me they’d be nothing. And my brain doesn’t do this to hurt me on purpose, it’s not an evil bitch. It’s just an overprotecting mother. It thinks of stuff excessively to warn me of danger. It’s like a pessimistic advisor but give it too much power and it’ll take over your life. Well, thank you brain, I can take it from here. #anxiety #bpd #fightback #bpdrecovery #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdproblems #bpdawareness #bpdawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit

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