Repost 📷 @bpd.mgt If you’d asked me a two years ago, I would…

Repost 📷 @bpd.mgt

If you’d asked me a two years ago, I would have said no. I felt hopeless about my recovery, I felt ashamed that after years of shorter and longer periods spent in therapy, reading self-help, CBT, DBT and Schema therapy books, I was still a wreck. I knew I had a problem but I was in denial about BPD. I knew about my symptoms but I could not put the puzzle pieces together. Subconsciously, I’ve always known I had BPD but I never really managed to face it. As a high functioning BPD, I didn’t seem as bad as others. I didn’t want to commit suicide every day. I didn’t self harm regularly and not with high intensity. I put all my efforts into keeping up a facade. I was a good girl, after all. I’d only break down occasionally but those breakdowns were really, I mean REALLY worrying. I lost jobs, friends, loves, my life was a chaos. But then I’d recover and continue to lead a normal life – until the next breakdown. But I was in denial. I could not face my condition and I could not face my past, I could not face anything at all. I walked out of therapy sessions and blamed everybody else for my issues. At one point I kept thinking everyone around me had BPD. Everyone, but me. Then, I had 3 huge blows and breakdowns within a year and I could not deny the problem anymore. I surrendered. And like in any recovery process, this was the first stepping stone. Interestingly enough, my recovery was placed on a fast track after the key step of radical acceptance. Everything I read before started to make sense. I was ready to take it all in. I’m not 100% well now. But I feel I am on the right track and I have enough resilience to face up to a lot more painful stuff. So, in short, it is possible to recover. It’s possible for everyone. I do firmly believe it. #bpd #bpdrecovery #borderline #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonality #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eupd #bpdawareness #mentalhealthawareness

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