Repost 📷 @borderlinepersonalitygirl Diary entry No. 688 I never…
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Diary entry No. 688
I never knew what I wanted to do with my life.
I had an idea that I wanted to write but I had no idea what to do with that idea and I was too scared of failure and disappointment to push myself.
So I sat back and watched my friends excel at school, get amazing grades and go off to University.
I never went to Uni.
I couldn’t understand why it was so easy for everyone else to know exactly what they wanted to do and where exactly they wanted to go…
The very idea of me even thinking of doing something like that terrified me.
I went to college, twice, close to home but I dropped out both times; both for different reasons.
I still don’t know what I want to do with my life and I’m nearly 30.
I wish the guidance counsellor had sat me down and said
“It’s OK, you don’t have to decide straight away; we’re all here to support and guide you and will be here for you no matter what decision you choose.”
But no, instead we’re given time deadlines of when we need to make these “huge decisions” and at such a young age!!!
I felt a lot of guilt for not being perfect for my Mum.
I still want to write.
Maybe this is my starting point…
What I’m trying to tell you is try not too much pressure on yourself…
But at the same time don’t be so worried about making a life that you forget to live one ❤️
Lots of love, BorderlinePersonalityGirl x
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