Repost 📷 @banicadaxter The desperation to prove to those around…

Repost 📷 @banicadaxter

The desperation to prove to those around me that I am in fact, a good person is SO REAL… but I’m kind of tired of trying to be someone others want me to be. I have to be honest that my soul has got some pretty heavy dark spots because of my traumatic past, and I am an assertive (sometimes abrasive) individual because of it, but I work really hard on my negative aspects. I don’t expect people to understand (how could they when my life is literally like a TV drama!), but the judgement & rumors still hurt cause I’m a human 🤷🏻‍♀️ I also think hypocrisy is a huge trigger for me. But anywho. Although I stumble ALL the time, lose motivation, and have fleeting thoughts of giving up, I’m not going to give up on myself or the path I’m on to a recovery of my mind and body. I don’t love my life rn, but it’s obviously been worse so I will always be grateful. Here’s a selfie of me smiling through a flare yesterday, cause Im hoping stuff will come together soon. Thanks for reading, I hope this helps some of you not feel alone! 🥰

#bpdawareness #bpd #bpdrecovery #crohnsdisease #crohnswarrior #selflove #selfie

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